Balancing act

Last night I went to an open house for centered birth, a group of woman who specialize in pregnancy related things such as doula's, hypno-birthing and yoga. My friend is part of this group and I wanted to go out and support her as well as get some information on all of the above offered services. I am hoping in a way this pregnancy will provide me with some "healing" but trying to balance that with not being selfish and embracing that this pregnancy is as unique as the baby growing inside of me and well, it's not too much about me and more about the life I am "hosting" =)

I got talking to these woman, shared my birth story and listened to their wisdom. These woman are very "natural", against hospitals and epidurals and modern medicine. It's such a balancing act for me because while I agree and hear what they are saying, I am also scared since I know that things can and do go wrong during childbirth. I never know who to believe, who to listen to, so many opinions and options. For now I am taking it one day at a time, going with my gut and listening to my doctors whom I have grown to trust.

*** and on an aside, I had someone post a really nasty comment on my blog about networking with "babylost" mothers. I am not sure if someone stole my "identity" but I don't network with anyone on the internet- I do happen to read and sometimes comment on a blog of a mom who lost her son ( she also has me on her blogroll but she put me on there on her own doing , if you take offense ask her to take me off) , and the reason I connected to this mom is because I had a connection to her sister in law a few years ago when Noah was first born. So please, get your story right before you come on here, judge me and make false accusations. ***

Introducing, The Sequel....

NT scan went well, measurements were well within normal limits, another hurdle down, a million more to go =) This baby was nothing like Noah was, it was so "chill", the tech had to poke and prod to get it to move and it would slowly stretch, squirm and go back to relaxing. Noah was bouncing off the walls during his NT scan.....is there hope for an easy baby ;)

11/9- destined for drama?

Yesterday I bought myself a pass to the ER. I was puking pretty much non stop all day and could not keep down anything, even water. After 6 or so hours and very nasty green bile I decided to call my obgyn who of course said I needed to go to the hospital. I got settled in, hooked up to my I.V. and suddenly remembered, two years ago I was in labor with Noah, in a hospital, hooked up to an I.V. Oh the irony!

Today I am feeling better, just in time for my boys SECOND birthday, I can't believe he is TWO!!!! I am so proud of how far he has come and I look forward to our future together!

Happy Birthday little bear!

Party Time

It's that time of year again, leaves are all but fallen, Halloween is over, holiday's are on the horizon. What does all this mean? Noah is having a birthday and my BIG boy is going to be TWO! I have been busy putting the final touches on his party for this saturday, pony rides and 30 family members and friends = stress + a heck of a good time. I am a little bummed I can't partake in my famous sangria this year but of course even more excited to be carrying baby brother/sister!
This morning as I was driving to work I started getting all misty eyed. Not sure if it was the pregnancy hormones or the fact that my "baby" is truly no longer a baby.....but seriously, where does time go??? And of course, thinking back to those dark early days, the NICU and what lay ahead of us- My god we have all come so very far in only 2 years. What a miracle I have and what a blessing!