Balancing act

Last night I went to an open house for centered birth, a group of woman who specialize in pregnancy related things such as doula's, hypno-birthing and yoga. My friend is part of this group and I wanted to go out and support her as well as get some information on all of the above offered services. I am hoping in a way this pregnancy will provide me with some "healing" but trying to balance that with not being selfish and embracing that this pregnancy is as unique as the baby growing inside of me and well, it's not too much about me and more about the life I am "hosting" =)

I got talking to these woman, shared my birth story and listened to their wisdom. These woman are very "natural", against hospitals and epidurals and modern medicine. It's such a balancing act for me because while I agree and hear what they are saying, I am also scared since I know that things can and do go wrong during childbirth. I never know who to believe, who to listen to, so many opinions and options. For now I am taking it one day at a time, going with my gut and listening to my doctors whom I have grown to trust.

*** and on an aside, I had someone post a really nasty comment on my blog about networking with "babylost" mothers. I am not sure if someone stole my "identity" but I don't network with anyone on the internet- I do happen to read and sometimes comment on a blog of a mom who lost her son ( she also has me on her blogroll but she put me on there on her own doing , if you take offense ask her to take me off) , and the reason I connected to this mom is because I had a connection to her sister in law a few years ago when Noah was first born. So please, get your story right before you come on here, judge me and make false accusations. ***