Where do I blog from here...

as I've said in the past, I use this blog as my journal. I like to writer, erase, start over. Write, erase, start over. It's much more comfortable and "safer" than paper- unless you shred it that is. 

I haven't been in to blogging much lately. Summer days are busy, we are getting ready to move, Noah is growing and thriving, I am getting back some of the "old" me, normalcy is somewhat wafting and waning in.

Noah has another round of check ups coming up- they also waft in every three months and usually send me into a tailspin of anxiety and sadness. However, the older Noah gets he is presenting as any "run of the mill" 9 month old, so this anxiety and sadness decreases every time. I can not say enough how much I can not wait until Noah is walking and we no longer have to follow up with specialists!

So as for the blog, not sure if I am going to continue or not. I will just write what I feel, when I feel like it. I started this blog to find someone, somewhere, that had a similar story. When you go through a trauma, you want to find ccomrodory , someone who has been there and knows exactly what you are feeling. I still have not found a story like Noah's. I am starting to be o.k. with that and moving forward, Noah is special and unique, and he is a miracle, and I guess that is all I need to know. So from now on I will just writer what I want, when I want. I can erase, go back, go forward, and just let out what is on my mind! 

Noah is 9 months today by the way- I had him in my womb for as long as he has been with me on this earth!