Janubaby

I am going to be honest, I haven't thought much about the baby I miscarried since I have been so focused on keeping Rowen cooking. I do wonder if he was a he or a she, what happened, what would it be like to have a little one now and not 4 months from now. Yesterday I did think about that little pea though, since yesterday was the day that s(he) was supposed to be born. You hold on to due dates so closely when you first find out that your pregnant, it was weird to have one pass with no baby and such a small memory. I am so thankful and so blessed to be pregnant with Rowen, the day would have been much more difficult without him rolling around in my belly. But yesterday, I did think a lot about the little january baby that we lost and I hope he or she is a tiny star of positive energy we have rooting for us come May.