Old friend

When I was TTC Noah I used fertilityfriend.com, a free online site where you can track your temps and all your "signs" in an attempt to pin point ovulation and get pregnant. In preparation for baby number two ( it looks weird even to type this let alone say this) I decided to give the website a quick glance over since this month we already threw caution to the wind and now I am suddenly TTC obsessed. 

I was flooded with memories of TTC Noah. My old "chart", the old logo's, it all brought me back to December 2006 when I stopped taking birth control and started trying for the baby who would grow and become my Noah. What a journey it has been! In the past 2 years and 4 months I have grown leaps and bounds, aged about 10 years, became a mom, and loved more than I thought possible. I am both bursting with excitement and literally petrified of doing this again. 

Up until this point it has been only about Noah. Now it is quite possibly going to be about Noah and another little critter. Another little human being, my little human being is just waiting to be created, and what a wonderful miracle this will be.

I have both dreaded and looked forward to this moment for some time now. I loved being pregnant and I love being a mom, there was just a few curveball thrown in the mix. The more my husband and talk about an addition to our family the more I realized that we did survive life's curveball and we are a bit wiser than before. 

The time has come to jump into the cold pool, and just like on a hot summers day we know it will be glorious but only if we take the leap.

The direction of this blog is going to change and grow and twist along the path our life takes- I am thankful for this safe haven and thankful for a place to record my feelings during what could quite possibly be the longest most terrifying and yet wonderful 40 weeks of my life- and until then my TTC journey for baby number 2.