When I went in for the U/S ( even though I had a gut feeling there would be no heartbeat) I had a passing thought that *maybe* I'd see a little flickering heartbeat and I get a miracle. I guess I already got my miracle once, and honestly Noah is all the miracle I need to move past this. Thank goodness for my smiling little boy, you can't be sad long with him around.
Friday, May 22, 2009
I haven't cried yet which is really odd. I am upset and angry and sad...but no tears? I am bleeding and have to wear granny panties and pads, two things that I hate. I am 10 pounds overweight. But honestly I just miss the excitement and the anticipation that a new baby to be brings, and also the miracle of growing a little life. It will be our time again but for now I am just :::bleck::: and hoping this bleeding passes soon and I can move on.
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2 comments:
hey, I've been silently reading your blog. I think you are so honest and courageous... sometimes it sucks that God knows we are strong enough to handle the toughest of situations, but He does. You'll see. Praying that things go as smoothly and painless as possible for you and your family. Take care. :)
Hugs and prayers for you and your family
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