Dr. Google

When Noah first came home from the hospital I spent hours, and days, and weeks, and months scouring medical journals and articles on neonatal seizures. If you ever google neonatal seizure what comes up is very unpleasant and the result of that sent me into a depressed and anxious state for at least Noah's 1st year. Once I stepped away from the laptop I realized how unhealthy it was to google things and then take what I read as truth and fact . 

Now that I am pregnant again I am once again turning to google. After the miscarriage I have started to scour data, hormone levels, reoccurrence rates, symptoms, lack of symptoms, progesterone, hcg numbers- you name it, I have looked it up. After I got my blood work results on Thursday afternoon I couldn't wait to get home and start "googling".  Have I not learned my lesson?

Yesterday I had a doctors appointment, she was very reassuring. I have an ultrasound on October 6th- 3 weeks. Hoping, praying and wishing that we see a healthy beating heart. I will be beyond devastated if we don't. Until then, I am turning in my doctorate from google and leaving it up to the real professionals....