Optimism

In an attempt to prevent a daily freak out I have a few mantra's that I repeat in my head over and over and over again. When I think of the next 9 months it's pretty hard to not get overwhelmed or riddled with anxiety and fear. Since I am sure the last few weeks of this pregnancy will be the worst considering Noah's history, I am trying, despite the miscarriage to chill for now. The fact that I am less likely to miscarry than I am to carry this baby to term is what has been getting me through. I took a sick day today. The weather here is gorgeous, Noah and I just spent the morning shopping and now that he is settled in for his nap I am sipping my non-fat decaf no-whip pumpkin spice latte ( say that 3 times fast ;) Today is a good day, I am pregnant and I love my baby.....