Up and down, and then back up

I waited until saturday morning to tell my husband. I knew he was going to freak. We got the bill for our school taxes this week, 5,000 dollars due by 11/5- ha! Needless to say we have been stressed about our finances. I knew that news of a baby would send him over the edge, and it did. The whole birth control "error" was really my husbands doing. Yes it takes two to tango but the man is the one in control of his ship sooooo when he got semi-mad I freaked. I am hormonal and of course on edge since that is where pregnancy sends me, so his getting mad did not really fly well. I wasn't going to tell anyone but since my at-times-a-complete-ass of a husband reacted the way he did, I called my mom. She told me to give him some time, which I did and by Sunday we were both starting to get excited about a new baby. Lots of ups and downs as usual. 

I am trying not to psycho analyze every pregnancy symptom ( or lack there of) but it's so hard to not constantly think something is wrong. It's going to be a long 40 weeks! And I thought that I'd never say this but I *hope* by breasts start burning and I am so pukeyI can't stand it....at least then I will know the little nugget is doing what it's supposed to be doing in there!!