Where am I going with this?

I often wonder what am I doing "blogging", and where am I going with all the insane ramblings, like: "what's my point?" I started my first blog Surviving Noah back in february 2007. I had just gone back to work and things were crazy. I was still suffering pretty bad from PPD and Noah was still being poked and prodded by various doctors to find a cause to his issues at birth. It was a bad time. The blog helped me to connect to other mom's going through various "bad times" of their own and their strength and support helped me immensely and showed me the good times in those pretty shitty moments.

In May I decided to erase the blog, it was filled with negativity and sadness and since Noah was doing so well and such a joy and a blessing, I felt like I needed to do away with all the shit I had documented. I wanted to forget it, shred it, dump it out, erase if forever...and so I did. I created my new blog " Parentdise" to be a more candid tale of motherhood versus a pitty party about what had happened to my son. In the end I think this blog ended up being a little bit of both, and I am ok with that. It is still a work in progress....

Lately I have writers block. Life is just so complicated, exhausting, overwhelming, and yet beautiful that it's just hard to sum up the chaos in my mind in a few paragraphs. I have been wondering what is the point to this, does anyone read it? It's mostly for me, my new age journal, but sometimes it seems like a chore to log on and record my thoughts. Maybe those are the days I should just skip all together!  In the end I will keep on blogging, hoping I don't offend, don't come across as something I'm not, and let the words be my daily exhale.