Noah is not walking yet. I know logically that he is not even 13 month old yet and we are still in the realm of extremely normal. However, the nagging shrew on my shoulder brings me to tears thinking something is wrong. Then there is talking. Noah say's mama, dada, na-na ( while pointing at us and yelling it) which his his version of "no", he identifies a duck and say's "duck" and growls when he sees a lion. He has said "toast" on one occasion but not since. I thought he was saying "dog" but I'm not too sure. He has also said "cat" but again not on a consistent basis. While on facebook I was talking to an old classmate whose daughter is 14.5 months old, she is stringing words together like " I pretty". So now I am worried about speech too...which sends me spiraling into a worried frenzy!
This morning I was just in a bad mood. I was playing with Noah, getting frustrated with his lack of interest in walking . I was feeding Noah breakfast which is always a chore and takes an hour, and wanted to cry. Nothing about parenting has been easy. I know that sounds selfish and a bit bratty but it's my honest feeling at the moment. I hear stories of kiddo's eating a whole sandwhich at this age, walking at 9 months, speaking 20 words at 1 year, and I think "why can't it be that easy??". I know I am blessed, I know what could have "been" with Noah, but I am also scared for struggles that may arise. Generally an anxious person, I feel on edge all the time.
I am choosing to chalk today up to PMS, potential food poisoning from last night ( yes I was up puking all night) , and an argument I had with my hubby first thing this morning. We are scheduled to get our tree in a few hours and I am hoping some yule tide cheer will brighten me out of this funk!
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I can soooo relate to what you're going through. I am a chronic worrier and spend each & every day worried about Adam... and, really, for no good reason. And yet, every single thing, gets me riled up. For example... he waved his arms up & down while saying "No" today and I'm worried it's a sign of you-know-what even though the doctor has assured me he's not. My worrying got so bad after he was born that I'm now taking med. to help with it (it helps a little). You're not alone... it's hard when you care about someone and love somebody SO much.
Regarding talking... Adam didn't really talk at all until 13 or 14 months. Then around 14 months he had a "word explosion" and he's a very advanced talker now. It will come... some kids only speak 5-10 words at 18 months and that's still considered "normal" according to my Dr. Same with walking... Adam walked at 12 months but out of our entire play group of 8 kids, he's the only one who did... everyone else walked at around 13 - 15 months.
Believe me, I know how debilitating the anxiety can be. I have to remember *not* to worry every single day and I try to enjoy all the "good stuff" that he is doing... and how cute he is which helps. :o)
since noah's birth, i stopped going on facebook. it depressed me unbelievably to see my friends posting pics of their healthy babies. not that i wish that anyone would go through what i am going through, but i just feel so jealous. i'm going insane. last week a friend had a baby. now i sit around thinking, "her baby is 4 months younger than noah. what if she starts walking before noah does?!?!" i think i need psychiatric help.
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